Sunday, September 11, 2011

September 11, 2001

I remember September 11, 2001 like it was yesterday. The morning was unusually sunny and my whole family was up even though it was early for us. I was 11 years old and just started sixth grade. My dad’s friend called us and to us to turn on the TV because someone attacked the world trade center. When my dad told me I thought he was joking. I just couldn’t believe that we could be attacked. I was only 11 but I remember the fear just rushing through me. I was so scared and it was a fear I had never felt before. When we turned on the news the first plane had already hit and no one knew then exactly what had happened. Then the second plane hit and I just started balling. I did not want to go to school that day for fear of something happening at home. New York is thousands of miles away from my hometown but I felt at that moment it could have been my next-door neighbor and we were next. I went to school against my wishes because my mom thought the normalcy would do me good. I can’t say she made a poor decision or not because I don’t know what I would have done as a parent. The school was practically turned upside down with fear. The students were all crying wondering if a plane was going to attack the elementary school. The teachers were trying to remain as composed as possible. One sixth grade teacher though couldn’t remain composed, her friend was on one of the flights and she had spoken to her before she boarded the plane. I to this day still think of Miss LaMotte and wonder how she is doing because it affected me so much.

In all honesty I can’t believe ten years has passed, it seems like it was just yesterday while seeming like a lifetime ago. I will be forever changed because of it. We’ve been at war for 10 years time and at the moment feels like it will be another 10 years before we are done. I am so thankful for our military and all the sacrifices them and their families have made over the years not just since 9/11. When I was in 6th grade I never imagined the war would truly surround me in everyday life. Now my step dad, husband, and friends are Marines. My step dad and husband are not in combat but I have friends whose husbands are and I just hope everyday that they come home safely. My step dad has seen combat numerous times already and each time he goes my mom just has to hope for the best and when she doesn’t hear from him for weeks at a time know in her heart that no news is good news. My husband wants to retire from the Marine Corps so I know someday I will be faced with a combat deployment. Even though I’m not religious I just have to have faith that he is trained to the best of his abilities and will come home safe.

I think too many people take their lives and material things for granted. Who cares if so and so has a nice car or a fancy purse that is not what’s important in life. When you reflect on the life you lived you don’t reflect on the fancy goods you once owned but the memories you made and the people in your life. It hurts me to think about how so many people have such ill will against the military and even their country. People are so quick to bash ideas and politics but when it comes down to action you don’t see them signing up to risk their lives. So many of our military risk their lives not for the job but because they love their country and know they need to do something about it. I hope for our country’s sake people start to open their eyes and soon and see what it really means to be an American.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Tough Cookie

Probably the hardest part about deployment is having to be the strong one. Everyone depends on you to be strong. You face some of the most difficult challenges when your other half can't be there to help and sometimes can't even offer advice. Everyone says the first month is the hardest and the rest flies right by. That's not the case for me I'm in the half way slump. The days and nights seem to be longer and although we are closer to a return date that just seems like a mirage on the horizon. Don't get me wrong I'm so lucky that my husband isn't in combat this deployment but him just being gone is so damn hard. You never know exactly how hard it actually is until you are waving goodbye to that white bus with your husband on board. I just want to talk to someone but my perfectionism is getting in the way and I don't want anyone to see me as anything but strong. I am strong but today is just one of those days. Any wife of a deployed service member can understand what ones of those days really means.

Sunday, September 4, 2011


It is 5:55pm and my indoor thermometer reads 88 degrees. I am so ready for summer to be over! Most people complain about it not getting hot enough or summer coming to a close to soon. I say summer is taking its sweet ass time leaving. You have used and abused us this summer and our relationship is over. You can't sweet talk me with blue skies anymore I'm done with you! Since summer in the desert starts in May and ends in October it tends to make a lot of us absolutely insane towards the end. Right now I am that crazy person! I keep telling myself I'll clean the house when its cooler. I'll do laundry when its cooler. (ran out of clothes before it got cooler) I'm even at the point of I'll settle for a nice day of only 80 degrees. Tomorrow the high is supposed to be 98. That is a vast improvement over 110. I'm done complaining about the heat now and am headed back to my ice packs and numerous fans.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011


When I put my boots on I mean business, screw big girl pants, I wear big girl boots. Tonight I had to put my big girl boots on twice! Once for a decent size bug that decided my bathroom sink was its new home. That didn't freak me out too bad since I had my trusty bottle of Raid in hand. But while I'm sitting on my couch innocently watching Tangled, my kitten starts talking a lot but I didn't think much of it since he does it quite a bit. Well I glance over and there is a MONSTER of a scorpion just there in the middle of my living room. How it got there? I don't know. How did I not notice it until it was in the middle of my living room? I don't know. All I know is I scooped up both of my cats as fast as I could, tossed them into my bedroom and put my BIG GIRL boots on. After some screams and some smashes with my swiffer I was able to defeat the evil scorpion. Did I mention he played dead on me too? But have no fear big girl boots is here and saves the day er night! By the looks of it and the rate my heart is beating I won't be getting any sleep tonight. I'm sure you will hear from me sooner than later since my house seems to attract everything that I'm afraid of.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Day 3

My favorite tv show

Day 2

I've been friends with Stephanie since we were 9. Even though we are both on opposite ends of the state, we still talk on a regular basis.

Day 1

1. I am currently a newly wed
2. The farthest state I've traveled to is Colorado
3. I love cupcakes, they always make me feel better
4. I love roadtrips
5. I miss the ocean
6. I haven't seen my natural hair color in years
7. My best friends are all from different states
8. I am so proud of my husband
9. I love disneyland
10. I love my cat but I miss having a dog